Well You Know What?!

Relationships are frustrating things indeed. You spend all of your time and effort to find the right person and as soon as you found them you kind of wish you didn't. I mean I love my boyfriend, but sometimes things dont click up the way one would want them on both parts. At times like those I really find myself wanting to bang my head up against a wall as to why I wanted to leave the wonderful life of singledom- and no i dont mean that in terms of other gentlemen on the market to pursue but rather just being by myself and doing my own thing. Seems like when your single a relationship looks great, but then when you finally get into a relationship that whole period you were single looking for someone and not finding them no matter what looked like a freaking theme park. Again, I love my boyfriend so I try to rationalize why things are great and I've come to the same answer Cosmo has been yapping about for over 30 years men and women think differently- wait! There's more! Men and women think of relationships differently. Women pretty much want a male companion very similar to her girlfriends but with the willingness to support them and protect them when needed. Men on the other hand want... Thats the issue!!! We don't know what they want and you know why? Because they keep everything to themselves. You think they want the tomboy type ad wow you find out how wrong you are when you catch them checking out another girl more did up than you, then your like they want the vixen but no matter what you do that doesnt seem to be doing it. It's really a wonder men and women couple in the first place because when wants and needs are coupled together the two are like oil and water. I'm frustrated, as I glare at his head as he goes about doing what he thinks is right and I likewise  do the same even though we're both wrong, I'll remember its some cruel joke played on the sexes. Hell that or readopt the whole independent woman thing, except in a relationship. Hey maybe thats it! Maybe men are attracted to women because women are independent enough to want to take care of themselves and not someone else. I mean we as women as soon as we think we have to care for another person we become incredibly obsessive. Its true I havent been as focused on my goals and aspirations since I started focusing on the relationship..... Men are stupid. We care darn it..... Women we have a tendency to be incredibly misguided don't we. The smarter sex yet we make the most obvious mistakes right? Refocusing on myself. Theme park is back open.

Starting from the now

So, I've recently graduated from college about two months ago. And while I know what I want in life and the steps I must take to pursue them I've found myself wasting away instead. So instead of making excuses I'm going to focus on now. Hell I made a lot of mistakes these last two months and didnt do half of the things that I wanted to. But if I keep trying to point my finger a one particular thing thats stoping me, the four other fingers are going to point and show me the truth. So.. Here I go